perfect love.

a couple months ago, i was in a mommy funk that ended in a mommy meltdown.  i had been completely immersed in work and was loving it….  in fact i could hardly get enough!  i was inspired by the women i had met and the encouragement they shared and reveled in the sense of accomplishment that came from a finished project and appreciation.  however {if the holes my 4 year old gauged out of the drywall in his room were any indication} there was a problem – my children were feeling neglected.

my heart sank at this notion so i decided to commit a week of undivided attention to my family while i contemplated ways of being more balanced.

the next day, i corralled espen & tilly to the kitchen to bake chocolate chip cookies.  they were elated and i was pleased that my efforts were already paying off.  or so i thought.  then came the fighting.  poking.  pushing.  screeching.  it was not going according to plan and my laptop was looking better then ever; but we pushed through, got the first batch in the oven and retreated to the couch for a book.  that was sure to mellow them out.  errr….  wrong.  it was more like round 2 of the same fight so i put them down for an early nap and went back downstairs to sulk in my unsuccessfulness.  i was not happy with myself, my children or the outcome and all i wanted to do was reunite with my work.

thus began a week long conversation between me and God as i wondered and asked: what on earth was going on with me?  where was the single mom that had prayed diligently for the opportunity to stay home with her baby boy?  why had my heart changed so much?  how can i feel like i’m accomplishing anything when everything i put together get’s taken apart?

i needed to hear an eternal value & perspective on my temporary, minute to minute, repetitive day as a mom.

the answer?

“Love like it’s your job.”

aha!  my job is to attempt to love imperfect little people, perfectly.  it doesn’t get anymore essential and eternal then that.  it is not so much what i do, but how i do it.  with purpose & love – in discipline, provision, nourishment, teaching, instructing, encouraging, correcting…. the list goes on.  {1 corinthians 13}

i am uncertain whether or not my revelation will leave you with the same “tada!” reaction as it did me, but on the off chance that there are a few of you mamas out there feeling the same way i was, i wanted to share.

regardless, i hope you know how big and important and valuable you are!

i also made an art print of the design at the top of this post if you would like you can download it here.

xoxo . rae

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  • meghan May 24, 2011 at 4:48 am

    love this rae. So perfectly put and I’ve love the print.

  • mary beth May 24, 2011 at 7:39 am

    I’ve been going through the exact same thing lately and God and I are having many talks. Thanks for sharing!

  • sarah May 24, 2011 at 10:24 am

    Thank you for that, Rae. I have been feeling the very same way. You have such a nice way of putting everything into words (and showing it through your art!) – and I will take to heart the answer you’ve embraced. Keep on rockin’ mommy.

  • Alli - Life on LeRoy May 24, 2011 at 11:18 am

    Thanks for the printable! I love it and it really puts it into perspective! I am a self-proclaimed “workaholic” and often find it hard to balance everything too! Take time to breath!

  • jennifer griner May 25, 2011 at 6:21 am

    rae….you hit it on the head! isn’t it crazy how we working mother’s all have these moments, and how amazing we all seem to find each other at the same times! God is good. thank you for sharing your struggles to help us all feel “normal” and help us through our moments. i hope we, your adoring blogger fans, can do the same for you! thanks for your inspiration rae!

  • rachel May 27, 2011 at 12:06 am

    Rae, you are AWESOME!! You are truly an inspiration to me. Your work is amazing. Thanks for the cute printable!!

  • KC May 28, 2011 at 10:34 pm

    awesome Rae!

  • Amanda May 31, 2011 at 8:08 pm

    Thanks for sharing! It is so easy to forget as our eyes so quickly turn away from Jesus. Your post was encouraging. I definitely could use the print to remind me. 🙂

  • cailan June 1, 2011 at 6:08 pm

    Timely reminder and encouragement for me during a time when I feel torn and frustrated. Just need to re-prioritize and mother with some gusto. Thanks much.

  • Stacy jacobsen June 4, 2011 at 2:16 am

    We really are kindred spirits in every way! I feel like I have this same internal struggle everyday! You are so amazing.

  • Lisa Blake June 4, 2011 at 8:48 pm

    Wow! I have been there recently. Juggling work and kiddos is brand new to me and I too have had to slow it down and find some balance! What a great phrase…so encouraging.

  • Rachel June 14, 2011 at 12:34 am

    Boy, does this speak to me! Thanks for such an honest, beautiful post 🙂